How fast time is? Really I dont remember that when I joined my schools, and collage, JOB Searching, Job Getting, Searching Gal, marriage......... and all...... See now I am knowing that life is too short and we have to achive alot.... we have many things to do, many peoples to meet, many places to see, many moments to love, many moments ................... how far is death we can'nt expect.... but before Death we have to meet all above..... what god written on our scrap book. So we have to be very very fast in our life without wasting time on thinking BULSHITS !
We have so many Rascals to load, But our head is small, So take care of Rascalses one by one cause God already written in our scapbook to meet with all Rascals..........
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Akhir Kyon ! ?
Satisfaction Kyon Zaroori hai......?
Aadmi kyon satisfy hona chaahata hai,
Wahin kyon sab nahin milta,
Kyon Nayee khwahish paidaa hotee hai?
Phatatee kyoon hai?
Aadmi kyon satisfy hona chaahata hai,
Wahin kyon sab nahin milta,
Kyon Nayee khwahish paidaa hotee hai?
Phatatee kyoon hai?
Friday, August 11, 2006
After so long
Today I got time to meet my self form so long im writting for me with me.. alone.....
fear of lonlyness is nothing. Come alone and feel your self free from every thing like any thing.
Chal ke toh dekho
Neeche Bhee dekhna padega
oopar toh dekho ge hee
aur ruk gaye toh sab tumhen dekhenge
Bas.... nikal lo....
Main bhee nikal pada hoon par akela nahin
Kuch log bhee hai kuch yaaden bhee
Par phir bhee akela jaisa hi hai....
fear of lonlyness is nothing. Come alone and feel your self free from every thing like any thing.
Chal ke toh dekho
Neeche Bhee dekhna padega
oopar toh dekho ge hee
aur ruk gaye toh sab tumhen dekhenge
Bas.... nikal lo....
Main bhee nikal pada hoon par akela nahin
Kuch log bhee hai kuch yaaden bhee
Par phir bhee akela jaisa hi hai....
Friday, June 23, 2006
The Gap
I have so many work to do but not official. I have to shift my room to my own rented house. For this new first step to a married is very hard but not impossible. Toady morning one of my married friend got a call from her wife and ruined. She was in anger of my friend because of his boozing habit. You see this habit is very dangerous for married life. This not only my problem but most of wives are unlike this thing. Only one reason lake of time with husbands. I should have not happy to hear that fighting on phone but from one site I was feeling unpredictable pleasure. Now I know that I am alone husband who is surviving like this, I mean to say getting abuses from my wife. We always afraid that when she will come to know about this she will screw up at the same moment. When I was getting married I was thinking that I will never ever say lie to my wife, and I will share every moment of my life with her. But reality differs ever.
Lust to Love
When I was twelve I was studying in a business class boarding school near south Bhopal and its wasn’t the best but ok king of period for me. I don’t know for others. These kinds of institutions have all kind of boys and girls. Especially in my case all are boys and rich boys rather then any gals. Some times in the middle of session year fest and cultural activities have organized in which all schools suppose to participate along with our age of girls. I was an artist also. I was very famous in my school because if these extra curricular activities. Suddenly one day one of my `Badmash’ batch mate told me about
When I was twelve I was studying in a business class boarding school near south Bhopal and its wasn’t the best but ok king of period for me. I don’t know for others. These kinds of institutions have all kind of boys and girls. Especially in my case all are boys and rich boys rather then any gals. Some times in the middle of session year fest and cultural activities have organized in which all schools suppose to participate along with our age of girls. I was an artist also. I was very famous in my school because if these extra curricular activities. Suddenly one day one of my `Badmash’ batch mate told me about
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Time out......
It seems there must be some diffrence between Married and single life....... A new gate of life beyound that every thing is colourfull. The colours reflection varies from person to person....... Some .......
Abysmal Dust
Today I am bit confused about writing. Now days whenever I got sad and felling depression I used to write. I felt that I have somebody who is listening to me carefully and sharing some things with me I guess. I am forgetting time from my small life. This thing compressing time but I am enjoying every moment without missing any thing. I am sorting some golden moments from that only. For the sake of these moments I am passionately going on and on. The abysmal dust of old remembrance directing me on some diversion, which might be known for me. Unable to say some moment which fades away from my rusty mind.
Today I am bit confused about writing. Now days whenever I got sad and felling depression I used to write. I felt that I have somebody who is listening to me carefully and sharing some things with me I guess. I am forgetting time from my small life. This thing compressing time but I am enjoying every moment without missing any thing. I am sorting some golden moments from that only. For the sake of these moments I am passionately going on and on. The abysmal dust of old remembrance directing me on some diversion, which might be known for me. Unable to say some moment which fades away from my rusty mind.
Monsoon Wedding
When I was teenager, I used to dream about the moment after marriage. Like Marriage ceremony and how I would sit beside my life partner during puja and how I would pronounce “Swaha” about wonder Honeymoon all that. So now this time is to make dreams comes true and next month first week I have been married with a beautiful gal for another part of MP state.
Things and situation are different but dreams are same. I don’t know it would become true or what? I think all will true except Honeymoon. 98% newly married couples are planning always to go in a sweet and cool and lush green valise for our honeymoon. But I am feeling some isolation from this because I have some genuine situations to not plan so. I am employee of a MNC but small software firm and no company gives so much time to do all this. So I am going disappointed about this concern. My in laws have got the good point of silly gossip and this is an embarrassing moment for me.
In place of our honeymoon we both are planning for buy some essentials like Refrigerator, Master bed, Washing machine, Kitchen cookery’s, and Elmira etc. My first tension is hire a one BHK house in nasty rent but in good location Because no one wants his wife to be in a slums and insecure areas. This is the first time I am worrying about the security and location. My wife is my primary responsibility. Every husband thoughts that her wife is the most sensitive Creature of god and we should handle with care. Every time we have to give attention on her. Daily I got lots of calls even I also used to call her by mobile some times from land lines to. Day by day I am getting updated definition of love. I am going closer and closer to her. The physical distance killing and time playing with me like a hide and seek.
My wadding is in 5th of July and it’s a monsoon. Clouds will play rhythmically and musical light will be reflected on the ripples of pond and gray the sky. Here are few who love to see rain on his wadding. I am one of them I guess.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Finally..............
When you do not know or not willng to know about anybody..... in the world of servent i found a new distiny..... Destiny is variable actually! but not always...... Because one day we will face our final Destiny without willing all this about....... I forgot when i born and grown up to surive for new world of imaginetion acually. In the mean while time i expirienced so bullshit concept of unnecesurry fuckinn imaginary dreams........... Still i'm searching the word "finally".....................
Beuty Of Silence
The pause between two words, where you don't think any thing. Where mind and emottions are gathering each other where heart plays a vital roll play for foreplay of deep dark forest of silence. Its starts from the dead end and the last point. Blood beats compress and decompress the vaines only. The time after a unfortunate desaster. Where time stops on coma. And about to start form fullstop I herd the cry of newly born child somehere. Time starts........... and I am waiting for new Desaster hoping to feel again ! The Beuty Of Silence............ like a damn Dog of a Damn Family................
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Our Story
Since Five and a half years I am walking alone in the dark street of life ..... Rain drops ripples on the damage road... Some drops are flowing out of my eyes. Anybody can ea sly find the reasons of that but i was alone .....
That dark night I got an avenue ..... The twinkles of the street lamps burning out the dark street road after lots of turning point of my life. It seems like a new paradise for me. Rain drops continuously slapping my face and suddenly i found a girl dancing under the rain and playing with the drops. I found she is folding a paper boat and making it flow on the flowing wave of water next to her.
Weaving romantic dreams and luxury future. Her eyes explodes the power of love and intensity of emotions playing around. I can feel the aroma of woods by dancing drizzling with the ray of street lamp in dark sky. Suddenly everything stops. The untouched silence was ripped by my foot steps. I found some whispers near by me and feeling some scary disasters about. That girl was running on the wet foot path and screaming for help. The silence was converted into rushful crowd. Her dreams was crushed and love disappeared. Her paper boat was about to sink in the shallow water. I can easily see her face brightened with the sweat. The honey due drops are changing into vapors. Now the beautiful drizzling covered by heavy thundered rain. The black sky burning with the lights and the clouds are cracking each other and seems like unnatural hazard..
Suddenly she slipped and felt down on my feet. One couple of big, dark, black and full of tears eyes are staring in my eyes. She wanted to tell me something by her mumbling lips....her tears are going faster than waves.
I helped her to stand on her own feet but she was unable to stand. Her trimbled knees explains the afraidness of wispering sound following to her. The time when touched on her shoulder everything was gone. The disaster rapidly changing on beautiful drizzling. The black sky ommiting the clouds and one ray of raddish sun light ripped the sky. The very first ray of sun touched her beautiful glowing face.
Now one couple walking furthur to live whole of their life together to make their dreams comes true.......................
Saket....
That dark night I got an avenue ..... The twinkles of the street lamps burning out the dark street road after lots of turning point of my life. It seems like a new paradise for me. Rain drops continuously slapping my face and suddenly i found a girl dancing under the rain and playing with the drops. I found she is folding a paper boat and making it flow on the flowing wave of water next to her.
Weaving romantic dreams and luxury future. Her eyes explodes the power of love and intensity of emotions playing around. I can feel the aroma of woods by dancing drizzling with the ray of street lamp in dark sky. Suddenly everything stops. The untouched silence was ripped by my foot steps. I found some whispers near by me and feeling some scary disasters about. That girl was running on the wet foot path and screaming for help. The silence was converted into rushful crowd. Her dreams was crushed and love disappeared. Her paper boat was about to sink in the shallow water. I can easily see her face brightened with the sweat. The honey due drops are changing into vapors. Now the beautiful drizzling covered by heavy thundered rain. The black sky burning with the lights and the clouds are cracking each other and seems like unnatural hazard..
Suddenly she slipped and felt down on my feet. One couple of big, dark, black and full of tears eyes are staring in my eyes. She wanted to tell me something by her mumbling lips....her tears are going faster than waves.
I helped her to stand on her own feet but she was unable to stand. Her trimbled knees explains the afraidness of wispering sound following to her. The time when touched on her shoulder everything was gone. The disaster rapidly changing on beautiful drizzling. The black sky ommiting the clouds and one ray of raddish sun light ripped the sky. The very first ray of sun touched her beautiful glowing face.
Now one couple walking furthur to live whole of their life together to make their dreams comes true.......................
Saket....
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Calf Lov
when I was 10 I proposed my english teacher. she just laughed on me got away.
One day she left school and transferd to kerla. on my 14th birthday at a moment I was still missing her. I was missing her soft warm kiss on my chin.
Now I am 26 still i can feel her next to me. Her voice ecos. I can listen chapter 9 clearly............. and I am reading that text ..............Jhon Father........
One day she left school and transferd to kerla. on my 14th birthday at a moment I was still missing her. I was missing her soft warm kiss on my chin.
Now I am 26 still i can feel her next to me. Her voice ecos. I can listen chapter 9 clearly............. and I am reading that text ..............Jhon Father........
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Slop of Navel
This night I was in a dream and was surrounded by a huge very huge crowd......
Bright lamps are bundeled in a group and eliminating darkness, whole that campus have circuler stiers that have grass filds lush green .... whites and blacks are in the spreaded group or couples...
in one corner hundreds are catching movies, thousends are undressed and lacks of couples are toplessed.... least each have some screched by wild tatoos and studds and neval rings.......
2-3 couples are deeps inside the hardcores...... and orals
i was filling myself inside them
3-D animetion dropping on me and dragging me
just like 3-D movies.......
all this are forcing me to take me at zenith of lust
A cold gust freezes surroundings ..... beutiful series of lightings and bulbs blinking in the deep fog of smoke....... cigarettes lits up
suddenly brighteness drops on face
i felt burnt
feeiling the smell
Bright lamps are bundeled in a group and eliminating darkness, whole that campus have circuler stiers that have grass filds lush green .... whites and blacks are in the spreaded group or couples...
in one corner hundreds are catching movies, thousends are undressed and lacks of couples are toplessed.... least each have some screched by wild tatoos and studds and neval rings.......
2-3 couples are deeps inside the hardcores...... and orals
i was filling myself inside them
3-D animetion dropping on me and dragging me
just like 3-D movies.......
all this are forcing me to take me at zenith of lust
A cold gust freezes surroundings ..... beutiful series of lightings and bulbs blinking in the deep fog of smoke....... cigarettes lits up
suddenly brighteness drops on face
i felt burnt
feeiling the smell
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Air Pulls Sound
Lust comes from beneath of sense
that lust having some flavor of Chhattisgarh
Fog eliminate the consciousness until puke
i was feeling like zero gravity ,..... i was fully concius but only by mind
physically im looking myself layed on the sand ........
sexuall desire comming ........ feeling like desaster
colours are blinking ..... rippels punched my mind........
all are this pulling myself at zenith.......
i was hangginging on the boundry like wet bra
and getiing the sooth wave shrinking myself
looking the stone and pabbles drastically very gaint
all are avoiding me from earth ...... telling me get off....
get offffffffff .......
some one said me Come to me ... hear I'm for you touch me, feel me ....
and now by my trimbeld touch AIR PULLS ME
Only with....... sound
that lust having some flavor of Chhattisgarh
Fog eliminate the consciousness until puke
i was feeling like zero gravity ,..... i was fully concius but only by mind
physically im looking myself layed on the sand ........
sexuall desire comming ........ feeling like desaster
colours are blinking ..... rippels punched my mind........
all are this pulling myself at zenith.......
i was hangginging on the boundry like wet bra
and getiing the sooth wave shrinking myself
looking the stone and pabbles drastically very gaint
all are avoiding me from earth ...... telling me get off....
get offffffffff .......
some one said me Come to me ... hear I'm for you touch me, feel me ....
and now by my trimbeld touch AIR PULLS ME
Only with....... sound
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Ripples of Morning
From..... the very hard nightmare,
I gotta thin slit of rays falling on my face.....
some revels touched my untouched desire.... pure desire....
dreaming with my open eyes.... through the invisible darkness
tiers twinkles spreads the darkness to new arrival
on that boat of twinkle feeling nothing but.....
Ripples of the Morning......
I gotta thin slit of rays falling on my face.....
some revels touched my untouched desire.... pure desire....
dreaming with my open eyes.... through the invisible darkness
tiers twinkles spreads the darkness to new arrival
on that boat of twinkle feeling nothing but.....
Ripples of the Morning......
Monday, January 30, 2006
Forgotten Existance
Feel when you shy,
Feel when you lie,
Feel when you are sick,
Feel when you liq,
Feel when you work hard
feel when you suck and got a fuck
feel the rhythm with innocence
its notting but Forgotten Existence .................
Feel when you lie,
Feel when you are sick,
Feel when you liq,
Feel when you work hard
feel when you suck and got a fuck
feel the rhythm with innocence
its notting but Forgotten Existence .................
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Eraz-ex
Paahhaaagal mar bano bete!...... means......... Don't gonna mad boy! Use this Eraz-ex for kick no.......? not fro kick BIG KICK ........ Inhale it on a dry cloth a long breath and feel the rhythm............................
Rang De Basanti
Arre BaBa! What this film meant to be......? Not like ... MIG fighter crash and junked parts used... What im thinking that when india was captured by England bhagat sing raj guru and other who was young poured them self to get freedom not only for him selves but for next generation...... In this Film rang de basanthi directors shows that we guys are not waster....... we are also doing what the time like now..... According to this time we are also doing like freedome fighter ........ although time is not like that but situation is partialy quit similar........... we guys are doing well ........
Ultimate nature of Humanity
I think its only based on three things nop....... very essential things ...... Aahar, Nidra, and Maithoon ......means ..... Food, Nap, and Sex........ its all thrise are ultimate goal of humanity.... no?
aaaha WOW!
aaaha WOW!
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